The Andaman triangle is re configurated

strange,. odd. whenever i analyse my outburst in my very international diary the Malay transport minister would appear with a smug look and address a press conference on mmplane giving very little news.
I thought this had come to end with the pm of that country officially declaring all on board as dead .a closure an relief of sort to people to try and pick up the threads of life instead of a lingering doubt of 'what if' which is worse than the actual facts .

Yesterday night i made an outburst against bjp after seeing news as usual, at the choice of their candidate calling them gutter etc in my private public diary at 9 pm.today in the morn i sat to analyse it around 9-10am since i feel that my outbursts are affecting a lot of people in a way i never intended to .i listed the the reasons behind my obviously needled outburst .,the main aim , would be to show that modi as well as bjp is not independent of rss.as rss has reacted similarly and warned them and it could also be because of my middle class outburst.And concluded that bjp is a political party and they have their own calculations and it is my fault to keep on viewing it as mega activist body .

after i wrote this the minster popped up again with a smug smile telling that there could be survivors.of course on cnn and bbc ,our channels have lost interest or are not showing it.Just what is happening?A cat and mouse game? Somewhat like chinesetorture? the plane also contained other nationals ,including India and i feel sorry for all of them

Most important why am i an blogger /diarist still being linked to 370? Diplomacy? internal politics?Sonia .g affair with US  courts?
By my outburst and subsequent analysis  today did i stoke hope in diplomacy and reprieve to sg?I think the analysis did it.That bjp is controlled by conservative rss and illiberal bjp will come to power  and therefore it is now or never moment for sg's reprieve .she may or may not win the elections .even if she does modi in power will see to that she  the 'Italy ki beti 'doesn't get reprieve since he is actually a conservative rss bigot who is xenophobic, racist , anti christian, anti muslims .anti every one!Right?

Frankly modi could be a monster as per tv  or strong leader/ a politician as per net .i have no idea. Rahul is a paragon of virtues as per tv and msns and a nincompoop as per net .i have no idea either.i haven't moved with either  them to form an opinion.Going to even baser level modi is a killer of muslims and sgand rg are killer of hindus.are all my viewers satisfied after getting this assesment , again an guess work?going further that india is always ruled by murderers whilst world over spotlessly clean people rule and this is our fate .And when modi assumes power he will kill all christians .And if he personally chose that ali who is said to have links with terror it is because mo being a terrorist himself can understand and condone similar mentality just as sg and rg can condone killings by ultra lefts since they have similar mentality and can take corrupts  as candidates since they themselves are corrupt and find nothing odd if any one is.Is this enough? And how democratic are all those journos of highly democratic countires are ,by peering shamelessly into my bedroom to read something which i write in my personal diary? Does freedom to privacy and property the sole perorogative of these exalted beings of highly developed and freedom loving countries and i being a bloody indian have to grin and bear my rights being trampled upon ?Even if my stupid spineless govt and opposition allows it am i not to be seen as a 'individual' whose inherent  rights to privacy etc have to be  cherished  hence should not be trifled with by the so called 'advanced countries'  either directly or through  their appendages ?

At a personal level i have afeeling that i am being exploited by the pshycho doc at my own personal experience and doubts , the doubt that palgued me a long while whether my son died of an accident or simply committed suicide as no one around was willing to disciss it and would prefer it to be a more acceptable version that of an accident .An suicide would  wuold speak poorly on our paterting skills. But i concluded that it was suicide much before  pf landed and  it was he who in a way injected the suspicion that maybe there isan murder cum conspiracy angle to his untimely death.That he proposed to a muslim girl which was not liked by her relatives ,though both had ended any such move,and that since we live near a slum populated by dmk whose elctorate is muslims and they in power along with cong at that time  decided to make an example of vidat  so that no  hindu boy dare as much as glance at their women,so as to please thier fanatic electortae and therefore the docs were manupulated to goad him ,a person suffering from easily curable depression to his death by havy medication and totally un professional advise.This doubt arose in me only after pf and co's inqusition .that to just 6 months back .Did pf plant this? and is he using this  so taht i may emote suitably to further his agenda that is who ever he is representing? By drawing a similarity with that 370 's fate?

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blogged at 1 pm 29.3.14

Joke of the day.

The Indian govt will blatantly 'intrude' into its citizens house--mine,also allow Obama and international community to 'intrude' into my house ,also allow European officials to sit in a local court and observe whether proper procedure is followed in trying an Indian citizen [would any western country allow Indian official to sit and check their court proceedings ?] but disapproves of  US  sponsored UN  'intrusion' into sri lanka-  Joke

My view on this investigation etc in sri lanka ---ambivalent.

Prediction for the day

Rahul.g will become the PM of Italy.

Musings of the day.

The cool greenery of the park was bewitching .The green lawn was sprinkled liberally with the highyl aromatic tiny yellow flowers of trees in full bloom bordering it .The smell of newly cut grass added to the heady feeling .
a sudden thought crossed ,a dark shadow flitted  in  my mind--would this enchanting park be the place of my 'moksham' if obama ,furious at my unravelling his role,besides others, in the Andaman triangle were to drop a drone on my head at that precise moment !
for a moment i actually scoured around for a good hiding place !

Observation on obama and obamaism.

Since i was an important clog in obama's diplomacy in the dk/sg cum Crimea cum 370 and defied his covert designs ,for the first time i am giving a deep thought about the most powerful man on this earth and here are the following observations---

1. He is not an authentic black.He is a Kenyan and has not descended from the black slaves of US.He is not a negro ,if you please. To call him as the first black president of US  is a misnomer .

2.Such an anomaly can happen only in US  whose history is just few 100yeras old.Would any other democracy in Europe that has history dating back to 1000's of years vote a half black with brown skin and mixed parentage to the top post?Would this happen in UK or Italy . i doubt it.

3.he is filling key posts with Indians,Asians etc all immigrants just 2 or 3 generations old overlooking the claims of the descendants of those who helped build US  since its inception.How do the americans digest this?

Obama is enjoying the fruits of the sacrifice of genuine black freedom fighters like martin Luther .etc ,though not being a full fledged black himself.

It is his luck and current 'circumstances prevailing there in[the reason why i was caught] coupled with political oratory skills that has made him what he is.                    the  power to peek into my diary in a blink of a eye

Obamaism vs sujataism

if  assorted terrorists,human rights violators , kgb putin , etc are in the first hate list of obama, i the non descripit indian blogger sujata must be figuring prominently in his second list for throwing a spanner [un wittingly twice]in his works.

observation of the day--- 27.3.14

The president of US  has abandoned crimea and has jumped  into the neighbourhood--sri .lanka the island ,which in  days gone by Hanuman [the hindu god with simian features ]had .set ablaze with his tail.

Theory of the day---Believe it or not.

That Obama got wind of the deal between putin and mms on nuclear reactor .So as to stall it and secure support for himself in this crimean issue sent a cia agent to hypnotise that crazily 'addictive' -which means a 'mentally weak  pilot of malaysian airlines [simulator at homeetc] to commit suicide and also to hypnotise me through pf and co who is already at it ,at behest of libs /political parties to mesmerise me into thinking that i caused that mishap and write about it giving various theories  which would show the bout of illiberality india is to witness after modi takes over and thus free sg right now itself .

I was  reading sundaragandam, which details sita's imprisonment in lanka and the arrival of hanuman with the good tidings that Rama and his army will rescue her ,.all  through those  days of  this eloborte  web and torture.

Crow .

Blogged nuclear energy yesterday ,not wanting to tempt politicians world over to use my writigs as a bargaining chip in diplomacy when things have worked out well for india in this andaman triangle embroilgo.
For more than  a fortnight i knew i was in the eye of a huge storm and that i had to guard myself against writing.
A crow dived at my head and barely missed pecking it ,in a shady avenue in one of my morning walks in those days [dont remember th exact date].

As per hindu belief it is a bad omen, an indication of impending disaster. i learnt of this from my f'i'l .That crow was attracted only to my head and not to several others who were walking down that road .i tried examining this rationally.Was my head boiling with emotions  [needled by ultarsonic sounds etc to kindle my creative part of the brain , am i not a right brain type[and it sent some waves which attracted or ir ritated that crow so as to make  a lunge at me.

can't discount all our ancient belief's , the fruits of the experiences of our anscestors down the ages , can we?

There fore i decided to be on guard .Yet i wrote as pull of those gadjets, hypnosis,etc must have been applied strongly, but refrained with greatest restraint to express my views, theories etc on the emystrey of the missing airliner as i was needled  to write on it  and i instinctively didn't want to as that crow had warned me that if i did it wouldn't augur well .

More over that transport minister of malaysia kept popping on tv the instant i finished writing something and i was given signals by banging on ceiling to link up my writing to those press meets.

yes i knew that i was being persuaded to make a link between my earlier blog on Marriana trench [a cursr i put on some one] and this mishap and to get into a guilt trap and either shout at terrorists  for targetting india ,by writing ofcourse ,which would mean that they were targetting india because of imminent arrival of modi on the scene which would imply, a middle class preception that , he was arriving and that if he did this was what one was to expect in here and india would no loger be a haven for liberals to breathe  and live freely [what with A. sen saying he will pack and leave india]hence it was now or never moment to grant reprieve to sg from US  laws so that her movement to US  in future will not be hindered.
                                                                                    .I kept resisting that trap and the urge to write about that plane's tragic end.since i had earlier on in the first episode of dev/ i had decided  never to become a pawn in the games politicians world over play and to combat the deceit, selfishness and hypocrisy with all my will power. .i suppose i did this time around.

Intricacies in diplomacy.--------

Why did China maintain silence all this while,nearly 17 days and has sent its envoy only after the Malaya pm officially declared the death of all on board of that plane 370 ?In similar circumstances ,that is if it was a plane load on Indians  and their relatives were not getting info' wouldn't we  have sent some one to Malaysia immediately?
So the doubt arises i my mind whether china whom i was thinking all along was being taught a lesson for its big brother attitude ,was actually into the big game !

It too was waiting for India to ally with US so that --

1.Russia could be contained,
 or
2. Thwart development in India  viz in the nuclear energy sector.all  intl diplomats may have known about the   deal between India and Russia much before i got to know through the papers.
 or both
The intricacies of diplomacy is tougher than the toughest maths problem .and it is taking me days and days to unravel it whilst the prime players have moved on .

The fact  that  many  a world leaders  would have gone to bed  and greeted the dawn on those crucial days s14--16 th hoping for a favourable outburst from me ,dawned upon me as i watched the rose tinted young leaves of the fig tree shimmerng as a golden aura in the early morning sun, over  the temple ,  today.

will any one believe what i gleaned and am writing about? like that mystery of the bermudatriangle?

Yesterday evening as i watched A.k's antics and crazy interview in Varnasi , it came as a comic relief.A much needed one after the tough diplomatic /maths problem i had to solve on my own.

I suppose he was back on TV after my blogging 'nuclear energy ' which could have scotched any one's lingering hope to gain something out of this triangle with my help[ though i watching the missing ai---on cnn and bbc after our tv lost interest in it ] . as it was no longer necessary to influence me through tv news in this issue..

written on --26.3.14. 8 am.

Nuclear energy.

The concrete result from the mystery of Bermuda/ andaman triangle is that the sedate and unruffled PM [sly?] will go out of office with a sense of achievement , that of resolving the impasse on running of the nuclear reactors at kudunkulam ,with the melting of the kgb hardened heart of that grateful Russian president on the non interference stand of Indian govt in the Crimean issue ..[read in toi that Russia has agreed to the new stipulation in the contract regarding paying damages in case of accidents in the supply of its equip or technology in the nuclear reactors  it is helping to build  ]


wily sardar kept mum and patient amidst all the political , liberal and media pandemonium ,in which
 1. i was put under extreme hypnosis ,pressure and gadgetry tortures

2. The Cong was also under pressure to resolve the tricky and vexatious issue over sg in US courts in this very opportune moment when all the stars had aligned auspiciously in its favour  --viz--- 
  a.obama was thirsting  for Asian support in Crimean issue and ready to let of sg  in return for India's support  and as a prelude re indicted that svelte ,sophisticated diplomat devyani.[her sc status an additional bonus for politicians to help her ]

b.the full moon was in rise draining juices from the crazy blogger sujata

 c..a plane disappeared and its mystery was calculated to keep me glued to tv and news .perfect setting for me to parrot lines.

3.maybe bjp was also hoping  for a favourable response from me that is to isolate china by siding with US in this issue
4. human rights groups also rubbing their hands in glee at the prospect of isolating china'.

M.M..singh has had the last laugh.

Like he said in that last speech of his , maybe he would not be remembered too harshly when the memories of the scams fade away.                                                                                                                         filled with resentment of being so shabbily treated by the party he is supposed to head along  with  his  conniviance  i postponed publishing this and willed myself to keep this in cold storage for next 10 days and then publish it keeping in mind his old age  and the fact that he as staked 'his all' for this nuclear energy ,his vision for our country and which co incidently came to a pleasant frution at the very end of his career .
But  i have published this today --25.3.14 as i do not want to give any ground to Obama admns to cut deals with slimy politicians at the cost of  national interests.                                                                                     And who helped PM  to achieve his heart felt goal at that very crucial juncture?Me., the citizen , he was in a way torturing ,who refused to parrot the words needed to change a jurors or lawmakers heart back in US  and instead proceeded on to curse obama and then  went on to analysing my outburst and giving the game away ,that emotional and passionate outburst was not of my own.

Did i do it for him ? No.[ i didnt guess all this at that time when i was worked upon viz14-16 th march, i pieced this much later ]But it has worked to his favour , in a way to the benefit of our country and to its future citizens ..  .

written on 22.3.14    10.30.am  

Realisation of the day ---25.3.14--10.30.am

An psychiatric equivalence is sought to be made between me and sg and pshycho analyst knows in detail our disorders and is making use of it to suit political needs.

If sg is hearing noises , i never did .Pf on top floor produced stereo fonic sounds  deliberately by taking control of my electric connection.
If sg is suspicious of every one around , i never was .On the outside my raves and rants it may appear so but, within none.
But i am projected as her alter ego .First to emote and enable her to take political decisons ,the  abrupt decision on telengana is one such,[there are too many to and it will take me weeks of blogging]]or stir aggression as well as contrition in her by provoking me after isolating me thoroughly.
All this is with connivance of all politicians in here as well as the media --not a squeak has come from these pillars of democracy either here or abroad , may be due to
1.Affinity with ruling class
2.politicians closing ranks to help one of their own
3.Scared of the ruling party --isn't she the supreme.In ordinary circumstances i would have been distant and non committal but my extraordinary situation is making me speak up .Other wise who is there to do it for me?
The hidden cameras etc are all real and every one --politicos jounos  know of this

 all people on the road or in neighbourhood  who would care two hoots about me in normal circumstances that is earlier all the 10 years i have lived in this area, [from 2002 ].before 2012April have the strictest orders to stare at me like as if i am a neta like sg.And if i write about this now when the original purpose for what it was done ,to scare and  chase me to a political party office in the height of Anna movt,is over ,it may sound like as if sg  herself is writing her mental condition[i was sort of grasping her ailment and it become certain when us dept or its appendage was showing inordinate interest in my early morning  diary writings  [with night long suggestions]since the devyana episode broke out. i am still on th ewanted list and so have to be alert .not because i have any malice towards sg but i donot like the manner in which it si being done] ]  about how

1.every one is glaring at her in ill concealed hostility--paranoia ,fear'
2.the suspicion i have acquired only lately  is due to deliberate manipulations , i never had it before ,could be hers  .a westerner in a sea of brownies ,which could have increased greatly after the  scams broke out .She may or may not have a hand in those scams but her image of a saint here and abroad has taken a beating  and could have led to worsening of her condition
3. my guilt trap is there, that of not doing enough to save my son and her could be with all those murders she was witness to after her marriage into a ruling family and fear for safety of her children . Fear on one side and the insurmountable temptations of trappings of power on the other .

I am maintained in this manner so as to be her!Now my forcible role is to write about my humiliations etc to sound like her position in India and move the lawmakers and jurors ,there in US .
No one knows in India as to what her real ailment is .Politicos are all too tight lipped so are the journos.so as a citizen i can only guess that she is suffering from cancer as she is said to be receiving treatment in salon --hospital in US .Well her problem could be other wise -a psychiatric one.

At present my penning my normal frustrations [which is real  viz illegal entry into my property to control me through camers etc without an authorisation  whilst sg may have black cats hovering over her 24/7 --price of her power but why should an ordinary citizen like me been given such a feeling? probably to feel her privations  --with help of docs who may have discovered some similarities in our nature, angst and  circumstances,[by reading my diaries] like any normal person an bored house wife would do in a situation like mine ,are using my resentment to free sg from US court proceedings in that Sikh genocide case.

My view.---show a certificate on the metal conditon of sg obtained from a psychiatrist and get reprieve from US court proceedings on grounds of mental ill health and hush it up .Is it so difficult for all the super dramatists to pull it off?Sooner the better.otherwise this issue will dominate foreign affairs to the detriment f national interests.

Realisation of early morning---25.3.14

I was wondering as to why bjp has not expelled me for constantly berating and also embarrassing them with my posts on Hinduism .It is not that i am too insignificant so as not to merit  a thought as  my significance is on net  and due to that , my inter national viewers and with my penchant of writing crazy stuff and weird abuses at extreme provocation, would come in handy in future when and it if it forms the govt to strike deals with us specially till sg case is hanging in fire,to monkey the  US lawmakers and jurors out there who will never read my blogs but only a page of my emotional and passionate writings  stirred by psycho analyst.

Since bjp is pro west and fear China my forcible 'public services' will be greatly valued if they form the govt next, for that matter any one who forms a govt ,to cut deals suited to their interest.

 . But one thing all of them have to contend with is that once i have formed a view on  a given subject it is quite tough to tweak it at a sub conscious level and if i have no view on a subject but if i  am wary of being misused i will somehow try to right it.

Predictions for the day---25.3.14

Praveen togadia  will become the next PM.A.roy will be his steno and usendi his peon on parole.
Baba Ramdev will  be next president. and chid his body guard.
Muthalik will be the next vice president and b.dutt his steno.
Alagiri will be the next cm.
Putin will gobble half of europe and be the nemisis of Obama
D.vijay and shinde will become  .naga babas.
Modi will become a arab sheik.

note.. i am keeping my promise of prediction a day since it is selling like hot cakes.and this is  only time i can take my revenge on politicos by making wild gusesses and cause as much as much confusion as possible within their ranks. .

Feelings for the day --- 24.3.14

That the emotional political right gets too  carried away by my daily dose of predictions,forgetting that many intrusive gadjets sorround me with several forces acting over me,   working up my contradictions.

Is this instant reactions  and flip flops owing to the inherent sense of inferiority, an complex , the result of 50 years of brain washing by 'liberal leftists'?

I can write a dozen predictions a day and if it causes confusion in the rightist camp ,serves them right for taking part and conniving at my prolonged invasion into my privacy.and not having the basic decency to inform me about all mysterious going ons in and around my house for past two years and continuing to maintain the omerta of silence  whenever i approached their office [after joining it] or met the  bloggers, to shed some light in this shady going ons

this is a reaction to after noon news that bjp changes its strategy from namo to bjp.

Question of the day ---24.3.14--10.30.am

By exhibiting illliberality [threat of tosuring head]s.s in away conferred saint hood on s.g and sort of paved the way for dyarchy -the main cause of all confusion and woes beseting this country

Now by exhibiting liberality--open 'humane' dissent in favour of a redanunt elder and with possibility of continuing in similar vein after govt formation , will s.s in a way confer acharya hood on Modi and once again pave way for dyarchy?

Observation on andaman triangle for the evening --23.3.14

When sg lands in us soil either for health care or for any other visits and the threat of of her imminent arrest owing to a case pending against her in a us court ,is viewed as shackling of her freedom of movement in and out of that country and and also as a humiliation to  political leader of her stature ,that is a denting of image ,s an  prestige issue ,such a emotional viewpoint will  always be a tool in the hands of us admins to blackmail its counter part in india  to cut deals in its favour ,where ever it is possible in indo -US relations till such time the ovt in here lets its decisions[ even if such decisions in the gov ts  opinion   will be to the benefit of vast millions of this country  to be over ruled being clouded by sentiment and emotion so as to benefit a single person.
simply put sg' travails in future travels to US will open up a lot of oppurtunities to Uncle sam  .It is upto the govt here to decided whether to succumb or not.

Thirupavai--21.

Yetra kalangal yedhir pongi meedhalippa,
maatradhe paalsoriyum vallar perum pasukkal
aatra padaitthaan magane!arivurai
otram udaiyai!periyai ,ulaginil
thotramai nindra sudrae,thuyilyezhai,maatrar
unnakku valitholaindhu un vasarkan
aatradhu vandhun adipaniyuma pole,potriyaam vandhom pughanzhindhe lorembavai

Son of Nanda gopala, who is the owner of  a large number of cows which are so generous that they fill and over flow the milking pans with frothy milk ,continuously,Wake up,
whose sincerity in protecting his devotees is unquestionable and who personifies the inner strength of the Vedas ,
infinite and bright One who has taken avatar in this world,awaken from your sleep
In the manner in which your foes lose their strength at your prowess and surrender at your feet at your gateway ,we have also reached your entrance ,singing your praises.
 

Realisation of the day--21.3.14

The very fact that i am writing reams upon reams on foreign policy in a note book--viz expanding the bermuda triangle with new theories every day like as if i am a foreign correspondent could be the concerted attempts of politico's to divert me from expounding my 'basic instinct'' views as opposed to academic ones on Indian politics, virtually on a daily basis as i have resolved to do so as my pay back for the humiliation ,isolation and sufferings imposed upon me for the past,nearly 2 years to be precise from end of april 2012   24/7 non stop by them or with their conniviance.

As of now the parties that could have been somewhat affected by my home spun theories and earthy primitive instincts have been the foll---

Cong, dmk,communists, the 160 group[a theory i heard on tv] in bjp with pm ambitions.Modi  i persume benifitted ,some what.

Is it my fault that what i write on the spur of the moment ,that is on seeing tv news or reading the papers or under deliberate provocation and manipulations,either co- incides or contravenes with what the power mad crafty, politicians are already harbouring within? 

observation of the day--isolation --21.3.14

The man  [ modi]whom the cong tried to isolate with all its  might and  power of state  is now attracting everyone like a magnet , isolating without any deliberate design, the prime movers of his isolation . 

observation of the day --Duo's. 2o.3.14

To the duo's  guru- sishya and mother - son their respective  parties is the only refuge.Other party members can  inter change .

The common thread running between guru and sishya  [advani and modi] is the endurance of long bouts of isolation .Shouldn't that be a good enough cementing factor?Of late it appears not.

The latter set [sg and rg]and the elder in the former set are how ever stuck in the past  unable to comprehend the rapid chages taking place in the country they lorded over and seek to lord over.

For seeing

i was unnecessarily hounded for foreseeing the debacle that Cong finds itself now whilst in fact S.g foresaw it way back in 2010 when she took ill  .I came into the picture with my predictions  much later,in 2012.

Comment on a tv debate.

Yesterday in  a tv debate an ardent fan of modi a middle aged woman commented that Cong loves sushma swaraj and that makes it difficult for her in her party.

my take --why cannot s.s switch over to Cong dislodge sg and rg and take over the reins of this grand old party and breathe some life into it?Cong lacks a strong brahmin woman face and she can don the mantle a la Indira.g.
it may happen in distant future .who knows?

Loss of innocence

Were the Brooks' files released by an Australian to shame indian govt for its non interference policy in crimea and not grouping with the west like how parts of my diary were and are released  as and when the need rises to nasty me?
 My nasty brush with politicos and media is making me see a lot of hidden truths around me.

Thirupavai --20

Muppathu moovar amarrakku mun sendru
kappam thavirkunm kaliye,thuyilyezhai
seppam udayai,thiral udayai,setrarikku
veppam kodukum vimala,thuyil yezhai,sepyenna menmulai sevai sirumarungul,
nappinai nangai,thiruve! thuyilyezhai
ukkamum thatoliyum thandu un manalanai
ippodhe yemmai neerate lorembavai

meaning

The timeless one who destroys the fears of all 33 Deva's the very instant they arise in them !awaken from your sleep,
The pure one who is honest as well as able and is capable of putting the heat on the foes of his devotees !,awaken from your sleep
Radha the young woman , the Mahalakshmi!and who is slim waisted ,rose lipped , petite mouthed and soft skinned ,awaken from your sleep
Grant us the audience of your wedded husband along with the requisites of  the penance --fan and mirror and make it possible for us at this very instant to take a dip in the river

Thirupavai--19

Kuthu villakku yeriya kottukal katilmel
methendru panjasayanathin meleri
kothalar ponguzhal nappinai kongaimel
vaithu kidandha malarmarbha,vaithiravai
maithadanga kanninai ,nee un manalanai
yethanai podhum thuyilyezha votati kaan
yethanai yelum pirrivatrkilayal
thathuvam andru thagave lorembavai

meaning
One who is sleeping in the embrace of Radha who has decked her hair with bunches of flowers,
over a soft mattress spread over a cot which is supported by ivory legs in a room lit by tall oil lamps,
one who has  broad chest ! open your mouth and utter few words!

Radha! You have eyes that are darkened by kajal,
you are not waking up your wedded husband though the sun is climbing higher in the sky,
You are unable to bear the pangs of separation even for a few seconds!
This selfishness does not behove your true merciful self.
          

 

Arm twisted view on missing plane.

So pf/kgb and co have succeeded in making me come to the net and give my much prized 'middle class views 'on all matters at this instance on the missing airliner.I knew i was being worked upon to give it but resisted it till today for 10 days because how so ever noble,deaths occur on and off and i can't keep on dying along with strangers i had one death in my life that is haunting and duanting enough to contend with [if i appear cold and callous , that is how it is for all .an tragic news item is read and then tut tutted,  and then forgotten]  or how so ever patriotic  the cause maybe [ i am naturally patriotic but when i am forced to be patriotic in every issue that is tickling the news channels  or politicians,then it is simply too much to expect of me ] i didn't want to set a precedent by succumbing to pressures[ though in ordinary course  of my life as it existed 3 years back i may have commented on this mystery etc,]so  to discourage such manipulations in future and the gross deception of people reading my views and taking it in  without any doubt regarding the manner[arm twisting] in which it was extracted by  this govt to suit its agenda as well as to discourage any future govt which could very well be tempted to follow suit.since bjp showed an unbelievable ignorance to my presence on net when i approached them ,.probably they are planning to follow suit when and if the occasion arises.

The bermuda triangle

I feel  that somehow i am entangled in a triangle that has Dev.k [who could be the front for sg] on one angle and then the mystery of the missing malaysian plane on the other angle and the role of india  on crimea on the other angle.
My view on missing airplane.--The malaysian authorities seem to know something but are reluctant to divulge it.
On crimea --India's stand is as usual .non allignment.

My view on dk/sg --  It is upto US  to decide and not let my emotions decide the issue on their land .Iam citizen of india born and bred in here and not of US so to be subject to such archaic laws.i am proud of my objective legal system and will abide only by it.

Jury system the khaps of westernised countries.

I was wracking my brains at the connection between my writing a emotional diary and that forming a basis for a decision in Devyani case up in far far in US.Then it clicked .US has the jury system and i looked it up in wikki though i was tired of all the confusions i am subject to  by the minions and side kicks.

I came upon the following provision in their criminal law viz' Jury nullification,'which was laid down in Us vs Moyalan as per which , a jury [jury consists of decent members of society not too familiar with law but who decide of facts and also decide the case!] has the right to nullify a criminal law if the jury feels it is too harsh on the accused or some other factor that appeals to their logic and emotion and passion and can proceed to acquit the accused and the courts must abide by the decision.

IT is more or less like khap panchayat.It is unbelievable that Western countries who swear on science and logic should have this very archaic form of legal system where decisions are based on the current mindset and prejudices of the society which is not supported by law.!

Thank god our legal system has done away with this highly subjective system of decision making in early 19 50's itself.

Since i have read only the Indian legal system as is prevalent in here , thereafter , that is the decision making is sole prerogative of the judge by applying relevant laws,i was mystified at the inordinate interest shown in my emotional outbursts[kindled deliberately] on dev issue by our govt as well as US  .                                          The importance of the  jury system which is prevalent there ,clears some of my fog.

Realisation of the day

I seem to be providing a lot of entertainment to a lot of people whilst i am deprived of my entertainments

blogleaks

The key word was 'brooks' from a artice in niti .So i was manipulated to agression and then writing it down and then blogging it as well.A stone was thrown and a friut got.

After realising that i was manipulated i have a reverse opinion.Oh pope and imam please come to the rescue of this woman blogger kept in servility in her own flat whilst all the educated hindus around are mere onlookers.!
No ,i will not convert , i am too fond of the religion i am born into but i wouldn't mind a decent donation from that Australian to give me the confidence and independance to tackle legally and chase away these manipulators .,scrouge of my free thought , my expression,privacy and  my free movements.

Blog leaks

Comment on news item.

When my eyes caught the news that top religious leaders of the world are coming together to end slavery in India in toi the first thing in the morning i immediately bristled with antagonism unable to brook thought of foreigners coming together once again to interfere in the internal affairs of our country .

Wondered why the Australian billionaire who is funding the project is not spending the dollars on raising the miserably low levels of standard of living of their own aborigines  --'the stolen children' ,who were so shabbily treated by his ancestors and are nowlangishing in poverty and discrimination?
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With regard to the pope and imam joining hands to save Indians from bonded labour, poverty , servility f women in marriage ,the same q arises in my mind , why don't they set their respective homes in order first?
Are western homes free of domestic violence?Aren't people nearby Italy and several countries in en Europe languishing in poverty?
Aren't women's conditions worse off in Islamic countries?Specially in our neighbourhood?

They are all respected religious leaders world over and my voice of protest may not be liked by the devouts.Yet i am doing so even if i am in no way going to be affected as of now by the altruism and noble intentions of these powerful leaders.
But i have this over active imagination and i can see the following taking place in future.

1.Nobody will protest in India now as its major population --Hindus are very accommodating and flexible and the secular govt  andl leadership couldn't care less.or even if it did  it wouldn't be politically correct in election times..So this movt will not be braked.

2. The extreme right will never take kindly to this benevolence of Fathers and imams and there will be frictions and retaliations if provocation is extreme..

3.When prices are rising and rising and has impoverished most of us the only hope for all us Indians is that the next govt will be a stable one which would bring down the prices .This can be done only if there is peace in the country and the govt is  not constantly distracted by internal disturbances and such disturbances may also lead to imposition of crippling sanctions from intl community on grounds of human rights.

 .We, which means and includes our govt , activists, philanthropists and social workers will take care of  the anamolies in our society and endeavour to set it right ,hence revered pope's and equally revered imam ,kindly leave us alone.

Blog vs twitter

Created an account for myself in twitter .one needs to be a follower  to get reaction s etc so went through the list i would like to follow, mostly journos nearly in the same plane as i am .On reading their conversation realised the vast difference between blog and twitter .

Whilst by blogs one can be source of providing news and more importantly topics for discussion like op eds of newspapers, twitter 's role is limited to discussing that which is already in news.

The scope of outlet to original  thinking is very restricted in  twitter  where as blog has immense scope.

mm i sort of understand as to why the politically right bloggers wanted me on twitter.To prune any mischief i may unwittingly cause by my originality  coupled with my capacity to give various analysis .That too for free!

Missing plane------blog leaks

I suppose i was worked upon to air my views on the missing Malaysian plane.An heavy burden was foisted upon blogger sujata to uphold India's hegemony in this part of the world from 9 th onwards .

I sort of knew that my expert comments with suitable pruning from the experts hidden in  in the loft  were awaited on the issue  and i kept resisting it  .Hate to be  a puppet  Instead i kept writing volumes on dev .k whole of yesterday as the sustained onslaught is quite tough to counter.Had a sudden feeling of squeezing of the brain as i finished writing ,calling obama a crook on 15.3.14 and my various assumptions on the d.k re indication issue on 16.3.14..
I heard the news at bed time on 16 .3.14 that India's help was put on hold and after hearing a tap on the low ceiling i felt my heart go heavy .Wondered whether i was in for a heart attack!Was it the work of people cookers?.Was quite looking forward to going to the hospital if it got worse, a change from my very boring imposition writings and humdrum life.It didn't get worse and disappeared after an hour.
Saw news in morning that U.S had moved in the search operations.Ahh !so i was punished for giving U.S  a opportunity to slip in .

So? Why allow media into my house?Or allow the people cookers to do nasty jobs on my psyche which is only rebounding back in a nastier velocity .The govt --shady dhadi and karrupusami and co as well as conniving , the highly  patriotic opposition asked for it as well as the perverted liberals ..

Shady methods begets undesirable and shadier results.

Modern gita.-Believe it or not.

The meeting point of East and west , liberals and conservatives is currently my diary Unity in diversity in a global village!  Vasudeva kutumbam

Written on 16.3.14-naturally in my diary before deciding whether to blog it or not.

Diplomatic puzzle.--------blog leaks

The re-indictment of Dev .k --is it liberal admins attempts to find loopholes in laws for the sake of a liberal lynch pin of a tottering party lording and now lurching over a populace that is by and large an ill liberal lot?

Surmises arrived at with help of
1,article in tuglaq
2.Articles in net
3.My own shabby and grotesque treatment at the hands of one in control of my Psyche and surroundings ,the first time this episode broke out in news and when my middle class perception was in great demand in foreign affairs and my discovering the nexus between the amazing and unbelievable connection between my house and us state dept or any of its appendages. written in detail in  sujataism.

My view .
           If the us admins wants to monkey with its lawmakers and people through me [sujata the blogger and diarist]in collusion or connivance  with the govt, and big two parties   in here in its foreign policy with India  and if those us lawmakers and citizens are such fools to fall into a trap with their eyes open [i have already explained in detail as how i am being show cased as middle class precept ion to foreign audiences in Sujataism .That which i was doing on own accord several year back was slowly manipulated as per needs and exigencies shadily through psychiatric control which i am rebelling against constantly since when i got to know about it , as i,refuse to bow to whims of politicians to which ever shade they may belong to and however powerful they may be.fools they made may lay too many golden eggs  and are unable to get some when they dearly want it]then it is their karma to have a crook like obama as their president.

I am assuming that all these pressures that i am continually subject even after joining bjp is from cong since it is in power.It could also be other way around it needs only a doc and few helpers and intels[lent happily by cong] thrown in..    How ever  for the 24/7pressures i am subject to for so many years  it is logical to conclude  that  it is the omini present Dravidian parties in here   whether in power or out of it have the resources and manpower to keep up the pressures upon me to write provoke and , harrass ,   and also to convert as it they did in 2014 September on me

{{**** 6.2.19--Note --Conversion to Christianity was carried on me in full scale in 2014 with blessings from many [politicians]and others turning  blind eyes. I didn't succumb .In between Muslims sneaked in with their agenda  of slow,sly and long drawn conversion, which is still going on as they refuse to take a No from me as an answer. They make their intention clear in this by putting as many hurdles as possible in my leading a Hindu life.Whether they have the support of Christian converters in this or not i have no idea ,,maybe they do and both were and are trying thier hand at it since long, but it is certain that they have political backing if not they cannot get away with what they are doing to me that is placing hurdles tenaciously in me leading  a Hindu way of life ,since a decade ,I am sure that they have the full support and backing and help  of Hindus as well ,otherwise it would be impossible for them to keep the pressure on me when i visit temples and homams and shradhas and in my daily puja .******}}

                                                                                                                                                                      And at present i maybe affecting bjp more than cong

1. Sort of helped in creating aap that foxed its chances in Delhi
2.providing ideas to aap ,their noisy rival unwittingly ,[by cursing to stave off my current resentment against forcible illegal control]
3.giving intellectual arguments from my knowledge of history ,again unwittingly [for me it is academic exercise].to not so moderate rights whom the libs in bjp would love to wish away.along with me of course [my irksome presence in net] .Assuming it is for this reason that bjp may be controlling me i will never subsume my rights  since i have no  deep resentments or deliberate agenda  against any community so to rub salt,so as to make me feel guilty for sharing my knowledge of history and hindu culture.
4.also beneficial to cong to replenish its ideas and currently to provide ideas to encourage their pet  pug--aap to tackle bjp

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Real father vs the fake one.

My father a confirmed card holding  practising communist all his life [80 years] whom the hypnotist often takes the role stood for the following and not what the hypnotist stands for

1.No to bribe taking .Very strict about it.
2.Abhorred naxalite /Maoist violence
3.Abhorred terrorism,
4. He never went around hugging and kissing and forgiving criminals and law breakers. He wanted them to be tried and jailed and sentenced

 The only meeting ground of my father and hypnotist could be the emotional opposition to rightists pet schemes of introducing saraswati vandana in schools or the earlier moves to trifurcate JK,and etc.

Frankly though i have been brainwashed by my father since childhood i have no such extreme aversions to singing slokas in school  or in contemplating splitting of JK .Nor did  i ever  hide or feel ashamed of my patriotism during wars with pak and i feel i have every right to agitate for my individual rights in my own way through these blogs.[He never did but my maternal grand father[during freedom movt] and uncle [against nehru when he wanted to ban communism] did . ].
And my view on loss of lives due to internal violence like it happens in naxal attacks, bomb blasts and in riots and scams a day  and crime is that it is the duty of the state to maintain law and order and security and it is not performing that duty properly and sincerely .

My conflict with fake father /hypnotist arises when he tries to impose the above 4 which contravenes what my real father  stood for and also is in conflict with what i stand for in such issues.

written on 15.3.14

caution to viewers

Dear viewers,
                     Those of you who are new to my  blogging  please go through my earlier blog Sujataism to get the whole picture about me and my  illegal detention in my own house and fact that i am  subject to constant manipulations, suggestions, subtle coercion ,and pshycological tortures  with  blessings and connivance of nearly all politicians and media houses.
Though i try and resist this  viz- hypnosis and constant provocations etci may not be fully successful in countering it .Hence my resentment and frustration at this control sought to be exercised over me in a country that i considered was democratic and free and not dictatorial  till 2012 ,courtesy  the selfish agendas of
political parties to curb my writings by indirect means as it may have affected their affairs , comes out as emotional outpourings at the state of affairs .i had no grouse against any of our institutions or the efficacy of our constitution till then.Hope my trust in them is restored once this back scratching sick cotreie is shown the door in the coming elections and a confident and dharmic leader takes over the reins .

I am by nature quite diplomatic and cautious with my utterances in public forums  .If any of my blogs sound too emotionally charged please bear in my mind it could be the unstoppable outcome of this constant shady needling and therefore do not go overboard over it or get provoked..

Realisation of the day

Middle class can easily scared out of their wits and the famed 'morality' to be sworn into silence in the presence of political/governmental power.

Mystery of the day

Re-indictment of Devyani khorbhode.

Thirupavai--18

undu madhagalitraan vododha tholvaliyen
nanada gopalan marumale ,nappinai!
kandam kamazhum kuzhali !kadai thiravai,
vanduyengum kozhee azhaithankaan,madhavi,
pandalmel palkaal kuilinnagal koovinkaan,
pandar viralee!un maithunan perpada
senthamarai kaiyaal seerar valaiyollippa,
vandhu thiravai maghizhindhe lorembavai

Radhe with fragrant tresses ! Daughter in law of the broadshouldered Nandagopala, who is as strong as a elephant and who never retreats in a battle,open the door.
Flocks of koels are cooing on trellis woven with flowering creepers .Hens are calling to one another .
One who has soft finger tips  ,we have assembled here to sing the praises of your husband ,
Come and join this devout gathering with whole hearted joy by opening the door of your house with  your lotus like hands that is adorned with tinkling bangles.

A sloka from sundara Kandam--Ramayana

Kireem kuberasya kathopadhay va,
sabham kathova varunasya raajayang!
asmasyam dasarathe na mokshya
mahatahruma kalahado saneriva

When Ravana asks Sita to change her herat nadmary him and enjoy all the wealth and power at his disposal she replies
Even if you hide in Kailash mountain the abode of Kubera thinking Siva awill protect you or hide yourself in the sabha of Varuna , Rama's arrow will chase and torture you.
Even a big tree cannot escape being struck by lightening when good times come to end .

Comment on ak's view on media.

There is truth in Aravinds 'accusation that media can be manipulated . i have realised it having suffered it myself  in the constant endeavour  of powerful persons and politicians in showing me as delusional.

Comment on tv interview.

Aravind.K's pitying request to politicians not to squash a tender sapling [himself and ap] underfoot moved me and his clarification that he didnot want to become the PM made me heave a sigh of relief.
Thank god my country,india, is saved.

Feelings for the day--13.3.14 5 pm. blog leaks

I have a strong feeling feeling that the big two wants me to join aap.Reasons could be--

1.To punch a hole in my' halo ' and show to all that for all my leanings to the right [as i am a unwanted embarrassment to the politically correct right and  who may cause revulsion and convulsions in the politically in correct left,] i would not be averse to sink my ideological beliefs if the carrot of a seat in loksabha is dangled which currently is possibly the only way for the likes of me --activist,die hard blogger ,bored house wife etc [ as per their surmises]by joining aap through buzzing sound, rays the works..

What to do?I am  ideologically challenged [maybe it explains this open air jail]and appear to be extreme to jaundiced eyes viz the leading lights of Adjustment bureau and re conciliation's groups and cannot put myself first and the ideology is that of the rightists and in total agreement with their brightest star 's mantra for all political leaders to follow viz 'India first.'.

It is a pity that i am refusing to see reason and am so masochistic that i am not grabbing the overtures to power that may be mine to use.

God has created me thus , what can i do?

I am too tired to write yet i am writing coz whatever importance i have will at the most upto the polls and i am determined to cause as much confusion as possible amongst politicos . It is pay back time for causing confusion in my life for past 3 years[since the anna movt] .So let me enjoy my power till it lasts without any regret since i believe that who ever is destined to rule will rule.----
Till here my writings were the result of emotions churned up by that  pf/kgb and co

I had a terrific urge to blog the above though i was tired .I postponed y blogging due to foll reasons

1. Who ever wanted to read have already done it

2.I felt that pf and co were exerting pressure upon me to blog this then and there itself and i had decided not to succumb to such shady pressure tactics.coz i felt that by doing so i had in a way dented India's image abroad in that nirbhaya after math by revealing my teenage diary  and having burnt my fingers ,was on extra guard against pf's onslaught.

Switched on tv around 6 and saw B's seat hanging .There was  a lot of banging of lift doors and understood the eagerness of pf and co wanting me to blog this .They want 'corrupt', inept B'out .Hence  it was to influence those in dilemma whether to give a person who sacrificed a white goat [how very supertitious No/ typical acchu pichu hindu who knows only such methods to propitiate gods for power as against the modern ones whose methodology is through science[gadjets,hypnosis, etc]to propitiate those in command for power ]when he nearly lost his ministry!.

Just whom does pf and co represent? Is it Aapam?

aadhar card.

Good news that bjp will reveiw aadhar card if voted to power .Why reveiw ?just junk it  and stop illegal immigration of bangla deshi's for livelihood..It is the look out of their govt to take care of its citizens needs. .we are already over loaded and groaning

observation of the day.

Watched A.K travelling by auto for his election campaigning followed by a convoy of two wheelers and autos.
Such gimmicks will never catch the imagination of Mumbaikers nor of any one down south unlike North where people are leisurely and tend to gawk at the off beat happenings and take it in the culture down south is different.In here people are simply too busy , always in a hurry and very businesslike to be impressed or taken in by such road shows.
so AAp is in for a aap [check mate] down south.

The fact that i am writing only about AAp must be due to pf and co's doing whom i assume to be working for Cong/dmk as also the club of 160 in bjp /nac /aman ki asha'/media/liberals /or even the concerted efforts of all parties  [i have no clear idea as to whom he and his gang represent ,but they do have authority to get instant compliance from the illiterate to highly educated to act as they want them to, in my presence] to promote its next best hope AAp to put aap [ tamil slang]--meaning shackles for modi.and cause confusion in pre poll alliances .

It is each party's look out . I ll write my reactions to news on TV, paper , net etc .Whether it is the reaction of an ordinary middle class viewer is for the parties to analyse and decide.

It is my desire today that modi should become pm as he is  strong and dedicated  leader and that amma--J.j who is also a strong and dedicated leader should get a good clout in the centre.From my point of view they are the top most leaders in the current political scenario.

But that doesn't mean that i'll refrain from commenting on news items or write my observations or pour out my resentments even if t appear contrary or some how works against[god forbid] my real preferences.

Wish for the day.

To see Modi as pm and for amma[j.j] to have good clout in the centre.

Pauper and the prince.

Aravind .k mirrors the methodology and ideology of Rahul.g.why would any one want to choose the fake when the original is available?
The plausible answer is that  whilst the latter can afford to wait the storm out and enjoy extended rest and recuperation in salubrious environs,literally a manna from the skies, the former has to go out and brave the storm  for his very survival with a scarf hoping it would shield him from the heavy downpour  and praying that it won't lay  him down with fever and pneumonia.

This i wrote this morning before reading somewhat similar blog by A.jaitely--Paap aur punya on the net .So it could have been read out to me as i slept like a log yesterday night.and i have regruited it in a different form

.Agreed it shows that i am easily hypnotisesd.at times but it is not true all times.I made a similar prediction or wish in sujataism nearly 1 and half years back whilst tendering an unsolicited advise to RG.about his future that  he should get married and lead a householder life for next 15 years since the charismatic chaiwala was best suited for the  throne as he would be able to understand the problems faced by the poor having risen from amongst them ,more than he[rg] or i could ever .

Now doesn't this prove my consistency even when i am hypnotised, in my advise /prediction/wish ?

Overlooking for the day --11.3.14

I can get myself to overlook and try and forget my very first contact with the politicians for daring to cross them and would have accepted as a bitter pill as that is what is to be expected of politicians whom one puts on a pedestal but are actually of the gutter with the survival instincts of sewage rats,  had it stopped with my confession and on learning my true intent as the price for trifling with the insecurities of the political class.

But the fact  that it continued there after without a let up and is still going on is something i cannot overlook .Hope the sewage rats who are still at it drown in the gutter.

Hope---11.3.14

That the encounters thrust upon me with the gutter comes to an end with the general elections.

Wish for the day---11.3.14

That all those actively involved in my humiliation and in the continuance of this inhuman persecution lose their parliamentary as well assembly  seats again, again and again and get know first hand as to what it means to be as powerless as i am.

Prediction for the day---10.3.14

The next PM will combine both political power as well as governmental responsibility

If.

If only aravind as an activist had informed me or my family as to what the politicians, he despises  were doing to me.
If only AK hadn't vaccilated and was strong enough not to succumb to temptation of power in december and had foregone the cm seat and taken a principled stand that he wouldnot take help of a party against which he had waged agitations against corruption,
if only he didn't carry on the informality  in power and governance to un palatable extremes,
if only he and his aap had a clear cut centrist idealogy with a tilt towards right based on development and security,
if only he knew how to handle power,
If only he had taken a principled stand not to violate my privacy--a common citizen he wants to empower by refusing to read my diary or put it into use ,unlike the kd's[known desperados]
If only he had either been a dedicated activist or a strong politician but is neither

I would have gone to him for succor and voted for him and aap in loksabha elections.The only ray of hope for 'trust deficit free 'politics for educated middle class has also joined[more likely was closet one from th estart]  the dirty /self promoting political crowd.

Since there is a big if before ak and aap i have to swallow my disappointment and forget them.

ps .pf must have inserted aap in his sessions since i am writing in such length and emotion about a group i quit caring about since they formed  a party.Only that their similar background ,education ,age ,class etc did strike a chord so my above list of disappointment is quite geniune

open air jail.

Son came for the weekend  and then left .A bit of normality in my highly tailored life returned briefly.As he came and left the plump next door neighbour popped out to greet him before i could be the first one to do so.Whilst the childless middle aged couple next door opened  lift door  ,timing it with his entry .

The entire abnormality of the situation around here hit me as i watched a khap like commotion from the opposite slum tenements as a police patrol slid by without the slightest admonishment or firmness they always show in J'J's rule to disperse a unruly crowd even if it would be only a group of four in earlier times.

If i go up a neighbour will invariably pop up .If i stand in the balcony any passerby will be stopped and made to stare at me.There is no longer any laughter in the corridors of our flat.If at all it is contrived and at a signal.That khap was also tailored ,so was that uncharacteristic overlooking by the famed Chennai police.

In fact not a single spontaneous skirmish has taken place in the opposite side ,unbelievably , for past two years whilst it was dime a dozen a day.This entire area viz my flat and neighbouring flat and neighbours have all become zombied inmates.Nobody has any visitors any longer.No chit chats, arguments and laughter.All those rough and tough persons in the easy street have fallen silent.On the day and nights the fraud Freud sishya's treatment is in full force for some political purpose  a deathly silence is maintained all over.

With a shock i realised that for my sake --a single person this entire area is strictly controlled with the consequent loss of spontaneity and verve and normalcy of all those around.And it is not for a day or two but for past two whole years!  Even cm j.j's neighbours would not have been told to shut up and behave like it is being done here .
Just who is that megalomaniac for whose benefit scores of families in this street have to curb their natural behaviour and tendencies and lead such a unhappy life for past two years?
Before only i was unhappy wrapped in my grief.Now every one around seem to be manacled and shackled and joyless.
There many in here who have never troubled me or crossed my path .Yet they are all being put into trouble.I feel really sorry for them and  that just for one person -me--most importantly some one or many in power are putting a lot of people in a unnatural, contrived and freedom less situation.

Instead all that could ave been done was to actually put me in a jail or some such solitary place on some trumped upcharges.Then it would have affected only me and not all the families and persons living nearby.,in the flats,and tenements .
A lot of inconvenience , loss of freedom loss of spontaneity in life's joys and griefs.Which pervert devised this? The extraordinary selfishness of the megalomania is unbelievable.Just for tackling me--a woman  should so many be put in non stop control for 2 years!Why couldn't such sharp minds devise ways and means to shut me away in prison instead of notifying an entire neighbourhood as a open air jail?

How is it, that , those wielding extra ordinary power derived from people , magnify only their problems, their future, their security, their privacy, their family and wealth whilst road rolling over the desires and rights of common people who have equal stake in  every inch of this sacred land?

Herr Hitler was called a megalomania. The person or group that that has devised this this open air jail for a entire neighbourhood for self aggrandisement and even amusement has beaten fuerher hollow.

I reverse my compliment [though perverted] .This is an act of cowardice . Nothing but pure and sheer cowardice.

Prediction .

That aap will win 40 to 50 seats in Loksabha. aidmk will get majority  of loksabha seats in Tnadu followed by dmdk..

Methodology followed---just a  feeling.

Thirupavai--17

Ambarame thaneere sore aranseiyum,
emperumaan nandagopala!yezhundhirai
kombanaarku yellam kozhundhe kulavillake
yemperumati ! yashodai!arivurai!
ambaram voodarun thongi ulagalandhu
umbar komane!uranga dhu yezhundhirai
sembar kazhaladi selva ! baladeva
umbhiyum neeyum uranghelorembavai

meaning:
Our Swamy Nandagopala who gifts clothes ,water and food to the satisfaction of those seeking alms ,wake up!
 Leading lady Yashodha you are  like the unfurling of a fresh young leaf on a stalk and is a auspicious light of your matrimonial house ,realise that it is time to wake up  !
Supreme lord who once measured the entire space as well as the earth by growing immensely and filling every inch , do not sleep and do wake up !
Prosperous Balarama whose feet is shod in burnished gold sandals , you and your younger brother must awaken from your slumber.

Andal --

Today is women's day .The woman who at once comes to my mind is Andal,the 16 year old girl who composed verses seeped with devotion to Narayana and that which is also unrivalled in its poetic beauty and stringing  of words that never loses its unique charm even if it is read over and over again.

The very fact that her compositions written in 9 th cent AD have not disappeared into the dust of history with passage of time but is still recited in all Sri vaishnavaite temples in all major festivals and in all households during the entire month of Margazhi--DEC to Jan by all vaishnavaites irrespective of age and gender [though it was composed by  a young girl  for young girls seeking  boons from Krishna/ narayana] testifies the great respect and honour bestowed by our ancients on a woman which has been upheld all down through the ages.till today.
Every Sri Vaishnava temple in tamilnadu and elsewhere have in its percinits a mandatory sannidhi that houses the idol of Andal and is regularly worshipped .This is an extraordinary honour conferred upon a woman ,though an mortal as she enjoys a permanent abode  nearly at par with that of Lakshmi the goddess of wealth and the consort of Vishnu, the immortal, main deities of sri vaishnava temple.

Andal is not only a shining example of deep devotion and the ability to scale high intellectual and poetic levels that clearly over  shadows many a men scholastic, devotional and poetic achievements but it is also the fact that her devotion and skills have been ungrudginly recognised and a very  high position has been conferred upon her by succeeding  saints and acharyas and devotees by immortalising her works and person.

Vishami.

Pf/kgb and co are still hanging around .I have this strong suspicion that now i am being put to use to shore up aap's dwindling appeal by providing the script for their faces to be plastered all over the tv again .

Kaliyug

Read an article on schizoprenia.The sounds on my ceiling were deliberately done to make me write about it and make my viewers believe that i suffered from delusions/hallucinations .otherwise i have never heard sounds etc.And it was so consistently done that it has foisted an unwanted hot line between me and the censures.it is still being done through comp etc.the insecurity  and cunningness of people around me is simply baffling..Just how am i going to hurt their interests ?The fear of anna movt is over so it could be of the other fear  that of rights activists.Over whom if i have any influence it is non violent unlike on  the left.   This is more or less like a forcible conversion .Truth is there for all to see and i am no politician to cloak it.
Second is the feeling of mental contact.This was and is deliberately done by reading articles to me at night as i sleep and then i come and blog somewhat similarily and then i would wonder aloud at meeting of minds or yell at those who have not copied that, projecting me as typical scizho This is quite tricky since some did copy me earlier. and when i read articles in certain sites that have been read to me they are covered from my view till i blog on similar vein .At present it could be fan my own doubts and cause confusion within me plus be the cover up of  misdemeanours of the past at my expense.

                                                                                                                                                               if cnnibn comes with facts it is fine but if i sort of grasped the general yearning  2 years back it wasn't. Poor cousin had to be shown her place for her daring .

If some one is activist for money it is fine but if it is done without taking money it is not!

If an anchor/anchoress/journalists makes a lot of money by verbally trashing  every one and express their opinion it is fine if i do the same  freely it isn't!

This upside down state affairs is a classic example of what the scriptures describe a Kaliyug to be 

Thirupavai --16

Nayaganai nindra nandagopanudaiya
koilkappane ! kodithondrum,
thoranavayil kappane,manik kadhvam thaal thiravai
Aayar sirumirimikku arai parai
mayan manivannan nennale vaineerdhaan
thooyomai vandhom thuyilyezhai paduvaan
vaayaal munam munnam matradhe,
neya nilaikadhavam neekkalao rembavai.

Meaning:

Gate keepers of the heroic Nandagopala's mansion with its festooned entrance and flag staff, unlock the doors studded with gems.

The turquoise hued magician had promised yesterday that he wold pronounce his boon to us, the girls of  yadave clan
We have gathered here with pure heart to awaken him out of his sleep and to hear the boon
Sir, do not deny our request and kindly open the twin doors that are shut .

Thirupavai--15

Yelle illangkilliye innam urungudhiyo?
chillendru azhaiyen min nangai meer podhargindren,
vallai un katturaigal!pande un vai aridhum,
valergal neengale nanedhan aiyiduga,
ollai nee podhai unakkena verudaiyai,
yallarum pondharo?pondhar podhu yenni kol,
vallanai kondranai matrarai matraizhika
vallanai mayanai pade lorembavai.
Meaning.
              Dialogue form
Hey young parrot are you still sleeping?
Ladies donot call out to me shrilly , i ll be up in trice.

You are a expert wordsmith , of which we were aware of even earlier.
Oh yes ! You are all smarter than me , yet if you think i am smarter ,so be it.Has every body arrived?

What prevents you from joining us? All of us have gathered here. Kindly get up from your bed and make a head count.Arise to sing the praises of Mayan[krishna] who killed a strong elephant and who is capable of destroying his enemies in face to face fights.

Comment on a net article on Wendy issue.

On 3 rd morning i clicked on good on Arvind neelakantan 's article on the on going fracas over Wendy D's book pulping  after a hurried reading of the article.

Clicking is a very small matter,yet after having burnt my fingers in the minefield of this net , that hasty clicking kept needling me, so next day i read it patiently and found the answer .It is a political article , that betrays the apprehension of the author that the furore over the book pulping may paint right wing parties whose chances are bright in the upcoming elections as unpalatable fascist, conservative , illiberal etc to the world by pointing out that when bjp was in power it never banned any book even if such books were  insensitive to Hindu sentiments whilst Cong had banned several books films etc mainly to please their vote bank --minorities.

So i went through the petition against the said author and her  book which  he had said will not hold good in court..
I will never read that 800 pgs book when i have real and genuine books, treatises, hymns , on Hinduism written by scores of ancient scholars, poets and saints in Sanskrit and Tamil to quench my thirst on Hinduism and went through the petition only to find out as to what was bothering the petitioner..

Actually the petition is fine.Since there are provisions in the law against hurting religious sentiments the petitioner has made out his case fairly well .
                                                                                                 I also went through some articles and found that the historical facts stated in the said book are not correct.Having studied history honours i know that the 'Bhakthi movement that encompasses both Saivaites and vaishnavaites --'in India started way back in 5 the century AD  and not in medieval period.In fact i have translated several devotional or Bakthi hymns in Tamil of  vaishnavaite saints belonging to 5 the century AD and onwards till 9 th cent AD in my earlier blog Sujataism as well as in this blog.Thirupavai -the  evidence and the result of Bhakthi movt belongs to 9 th cent Ad.The dates i have been taught at college  have all been arrived at in scientific manner viz carbon dating, archaeological evidences as well as from contemporaneous literary works with established dates.

By clicking in a hurry i have endorsed net article's author  fear [for him genuine from his political point of view]which sort of  mirrors my own need to clarify my own position in my open letter to Modi fans.That of the tenacity of the unseen Hand to throw as many hurdles as possible through what ever means [ i am  one such] in what it is seeing as a unstoppable race to the first place by the star athlete in its rival camp.

Dogs bark when caravans pass.

Flexibility and farsightedness of Sri Ramanuja.

Sri Ramauja distilled Si Vaishnavaites concepts from works of earlier acharyas, aazhwars, puranas and veda's and organised it into a distinct sect within the Hindu fold..

The emphasis on strict adherence to only one god   Narayana  even forbidding the followers to worship another by persuasion and not coercion, embossing Shanku, chakram on forearm on all who belong to this sect  and the acceptance of any one to this fold irrespective of caste or creed with the only rider that of total devotion toVishnu/narayana and injunction to consider the true devotees of Narayana at par with Narayana himself and directing all others to show them greatest respect and standardising temple rituals , makes me wonder if such reforms that includes conversion  and absorption which was unthinkable 1000 years back  emanating from a Brahmin at his times was all due to reaction to Ghazni and earlier Arab invasions.

Whilst Adi Shanakara had to contend with Buddhist influence and tried to counter it by debates and setting up mutts an idea that  may  have been borrowed from  very same religion he tried to counter --buddists monastries,  to propagate Hinduism systematically  Sri ramanuja had to contend with influence of Islam and probably had the far sight to quickly adapt some of its salient feature like one god ,equality       and, conversion so as to counter its spread.

Sri Ramanuja and his views were welcomed and adapted by the high and low in Tamilnadu, Karnataka and Andhra but was repugnant to the higher class and castes in kashmir, Kerala and Orissa ,when he went their with his views and was  physically  thrashed and was chased away from their domains since they wanted the existing inflexible order to continue much to the detriment of the religion and its influence they  so much wanted to preserve.

Nourishment.

The trees , creepers and shrubs in the park were covered with flowers as alluring as the next .
The naganandi tree was also bedecked with those pinkish rose coloured highly aromatic flowers whose heady fragrance stroked me gently as it drifted over as i sat underneath as is my practise for the last 12 years .A small rest after the ritual  morning walk which in the first half of this long period was characterised by the need to get into shape whilst the on going second half was mainly to re affirm  and reassure my connections with all that is routine and normal .

A flock of creamy yellow butterflies were all crowding over a bush that had very small bunches of flowers with tiny tubes and petals.They were not interested in bigger flowers which looked more attractive and some even more highly scented than those tiny orangish red tubular flowers  and therefore their choice surprised me.As my point of view is that bigger and attractive  the flower more would its nectar be but to the butterflies whose sustenance are the flowers knew instinctively which flower had the sweetest and most nourishing nectar to enable them to complete their life cycle,how ever small and insignificant such flowers appear to worldly  wise eyes.
The banquet was over in few minutes and in a instant the creamy haze dissolved in the greenery .A few stragglers ,rust and black coloured butterflies flitted on to those flowers and flitted away immediately .Obviously ,the sweet nectar had been emptied out by that earlier flock.

wtitten on30 .12.13

Transformer.

Two days back electricians were fiddling with the transformer near my bedroom.The jarring  scraping sound of metal  worked upon by metallic saw and sparks flying from a joint stopped thereafter .The stereo fonic tapping's on my ceiling that can be compared to the piercing jabs administered by mahouts with their sharp and small axes on the elephants they ride to control it  lost its intensity and became muffled.I think it was on the  day-Saturday ,late in the morning that  the much touted ordinances  on graft was sought to be hurried through ,was  being considered but dropped by the cabinet in the evening   and news flashed that elections would be announced soon.
                                                                                                                           .I wrote my diary that morning after a lapse of nearly 10 days ! The trigger was the killing of policemen by naxals in Chattisgarh and i linked that news item in the daily to my blog on big brother because of the earlier genuine link and felt absolutely frustrated at being constantly needled so as to vent my emotions directly on the blog which is public ,[which normally i never would do so ], that could be detriment to others lives and wished fervently that a strong leader  would emerge in the coming elections who would wipe out this Maoist menace that is eating lives and development ,from India and ended it saying had enough of their deadly harkatens--mischiefs.By writing this first thing in the morning on a crucial image makeover day ,probably i signalled the end of this regime hence the futility to  who ever was fondly nursing a dramatic comeback .I suppose the carefully stoked aggression went haywire and boomeranged.Soon after i wrote this the maid washed the stairs symbolically,   since she does  it only on Sundays and left my portion in the landing with the kolam [rangoli] intact, whilst washing off  2 other neighbours.

So part of my torture is over .Some sick politician was bent on screwing my mind non stop to derive inspiration/josh  with a sickening perversion from my latent aggression stoked to exploding point deliberately by constant provocations that reached its peak in the kharbode incident  that conveniently co incided with  the prolonged  indecisiveness in  govt formation in Delhi by AaP. Hope that creep goes to hell.In comparison,the other tortures sort of pale into insignificance.[ on reading this nectar must be flowing into pf/ kgb and co 's beings[worthless /spineless /conscience less scums]  for providing the proof of their loyalty and sycophancy to their political masters-

The next part of my torture  viz constantly watching my every move through cameras should be at the most 2 months away  when this govt concedes defeat ad the next takes over with the hope that the next one would have a confident leader at the helm who wouldn't take recourse to such or continue with this shady practise that is at once  demeaning to any  person leading the country of a billion as well as dehumanising a citizen.

If  the utterly ethic less media persists  i 'll get a private electrician to remove the spy cams bugs etc who will be amenable without the threat of a central agency hanging over his head.Even if that fails ofcourse there is the police ,amenable and considerate politician,etc.yeah yeah ppts jump in joy i have mentoned you all at least once favourably and indicated  my slight inclination to surrender to the almightyswrapped in their own importance tch tch  what a fall what a fall or rather what a insecurity  that needs constant reassurance from a very ordinary person like me and you ppts are supposed to lead us all fearlessly from the front !

There is a saying in Tamil --Passithalum puli pulai thinadhu  meaning A tiger will not eat grass even if it is starving.Hope  this saying  holds good to the next supreme political cum   governmental  leader of this country.

Isiliye--this is why.

''Senthamizh naadu yennum podhinile inbha then vandhu puyudhu kaadhinile'' meaning --On hearing the word tamilnadu sweet honey flows into my ears --are the emotional words penned by SubramaniBharatiyar an nationalist poet of the past century.
These  very lines came to my mind on watching a woman  on u tube in a net daily, trying to decode Modi's popularity under the heading 'isiliye 'in her own way[which i don't remember now] and i decoded it in the above way .
which is that he so often speaks of 'is  Desh' .and the inherent potential of this country with such obvious pride that it is sweet music to ears starved for long decades specially the past decade that didn't hear any leader mention the word 'My country' in any debate or speech or interview like as if it was no longer fashionable or the 'in thing' to do.

No doubt 'vasudev kutumbham' --viz  The whole world is a family, is a very noble world view but to a person like me who may appear shallow and narrow to all those 'mahanu bavos' -meaning August persons of noble assembly', it  is the word  desh , Bharat mata ki jai  ,Vande mataram and my country and so on that is like a dash  of sweet nectar drenching  my being .
 .

Thirupavai--14.

Ungal puzhakadai thotathu vaviul
sengazhuneer vainegizh aambalvai koombhinkaan
sengal podi koorai venpal thavathavar
thangal thirukoil sangiduvaan podhandhaar
yengalai munnam yezhuipuvaan vai pesum
Nangai! Yezhundhirai naavudaiyai
sangodu chakaram yendhum thadakaiyan
pangayak kannanai pade lorembavai!

Meaning:

Lotus have bloomed in the pond in your backyard and lilies have closed their petals.

Sanyasi's whose teeth are white without any stain [by not chewing betul nut,paan]and wearing saffron clothes are proceeding to their sacred temples to blow the conch!

Dear youngwoman ,you had promised to wake us up but haven't kept the promise ,yet you are not ashamed ! We  concede that you do posses the ability to  talk sweetly,

Arise to sing the praises of the lotus eyed one who beholds the conch and chakra in his sinewy arms.

Thirupavai--13

Pullinvai keendanai polla arrakanai
killikalaindhanai kerthimai paadipoi
Pilaigal yellorum pavai kalambhukkar
velliyezundhu vyazhan urangitru
pullum silambinkaan podarik kanninais
kulla kulira kudaindhu neeradadhe
palli kidathiyo? pavai ! nee nanallal,
kallam thavirndhu kalandhe lorembavai

meaning:
All the girl have reached the place where the penance has  to be performed, singing raises of one who Tore open the mouth of the bird , the form taken by Bhakasuran and of the Bhagwan who effortlessly plucked the 10 heads of the wicked Ravana.

Venus has risen and Jupiter has set[indicating the break of dawn]and birds are calling out welcoming the dawn.
Little girl ,blessed with lotus like as well as doe like eyes  avoid the deceitful enjoyment of thoughts of Krishna all by yourself by lying on the bed .
Instead awake and arise and join us in bathing in this very chilly  but auspicious morning.

Wish for the day. 1.3.14

Hope a strong leader emerges in the coming elections who would wipe out the maoist menace and save young lives in the defence forces by throwing away the junks and by obtaining sound and latest equipments.