My view on bifurcation of Andra -pradesh

My very first reaction on hearing about the decision taken to split AP into two was an emotional -No!It can't be!.Having spent my teen years at Hyderabad  and often taking off to Tirupati a seemandra region and native place of my parents  for summer holidays i just couldn't stomach the split.Wasn't Secundrabad and its twin city Hyderbad the cultural capitol of Andra ?Even if other issues are sorted out like water sharing etc how can a blue blooded Andra ever let go off this emotional attachment to this capitol?

If all this reaction was due to the petrification of  my adolescent sentiments and therefore need to over looked hasn't Hyderabad grown exponentially in past decades as one keeps hearing of a latest IT comp being set up as well as all those hi fi educational insti that have come up there?And all this hasn't been replicated elsewhere in AP.

Unlike Bihar , where Ranchi was since Britishers time the summer capitol of that state and boasted of best schools and already had a bench of high court ,i remember visiting it as early as 1990. so Jharkand  had a made  to order capitol already in existence when it split from bihar.So no problems were encountered .

According to me Hyderabad would be the flash point.And that trs leader has made things worse by asking all those hailing from rest of Andra and serving in govt offices to quit Hyderabad like as if this was a partition between two warring countries!

My suggestion for the sake of the people of seemandra troubled by insecurities at the face of  stubbornness of scheming politicians is to declare Hyderabad as a union territory[the 10 year cooling off is no guarantee that a similar capitol will be developed elsewhere and by then hyd would have grown even more and so will never get to be matched!]  .

Resigning of AK

I am glad that he has quit thus saving me from the further agony of watching this nail biting thriller in Delhi non stop for two long months in all news channels be it Eng or hindi.The non stop coverage of aap's antics got on my nerves .
Good riddance to a lot of noise , din and endless debates over him .Hope that hereafter they get out of sight and mind..Am relieved to the core.

Political leanings of my anscestors and their role in my life.Post title

Though i consider myself as my father's daughter,with  a shock i realise that whom all he trusted and liked in political field have all have betrayed me in personal life .[readers do not confuse me with India or citizen--this is about myself]
He liked M. Karunanidhi ,specially his atheism,But it is his minions [may be with his tacit consent] who have been harassing me all along ,without my ever realising or even suspecting even a shriver till few days back.What a trusting fool i have been ! I am living right in the midst of dmk's electorate viz --slum dwellers ,hatchet men and muslims in this 1000 lights area for past 12 years talking loudly and frankly about all sections of society which includes muslims,sc,non brahmins etc without ever once pausing to think that walls have ears and people are not all that broadminded in here [our ill luck we have landed right in the middle of a ib or secret services quarters whiteout ever knowing it till the open attempts were made to scare me after trying out slyly  typical police treatments of breaking my knee then knockimgof my teeth etc] and also blogging and criticising ofcourse only about the lack of a garbage  free environment and general observations regarding lack of civic facilities .

He was card holding member of communist party and life long adherents to its principles but not one with  those with leftist leanings , either in aap or  communist party bothered to at the least inform me if not help me understand as to what was going on around me!

He admired Nehru, and Indira ghandhi greatly .and i am now at the receiving end of her i.g's d-i-l and her grandson's non stop harassment, brainwashing ,crazy experiments in conversion and in revival of my 14 year old animal spirit !

Where as my grandfather's political leanings didn't harm me.Some even expressed solidarity and had a word of encouragement to enable me to face the onslaught when it was leashed covertly that bewildered me.I didn't know as to what hit me not making the political connection.

He was a close friend of babu Rajendraprasad  and Patel and not of Nehru. The educated intellectual rightist s who were proud of their Hindu and cultural heritage.He was fond of vajpayee an young MP, then.I am sure that such rightists are not ashamed of themselves for being one and didn't take part in the ill treatment meted to me and is still being meted out.
He liked MGR and mgr had the greatest regard and respect for him and often sought his counsel on constitutional matters when as a cm he had to tackle the centre.He often visited him in Tirupati where my grand father had retired seeking his advise.It was mgr and not Cong that subsidised his treatment in his last days at Apollo hospitals in Chennai and was also  the only political leader to attend his funeral, Cong leaders couldn't care less.Mgr's disciple j.j.-Amma  sent a posse of policemen when all this started and when i was totally flummoxed  and that gesture was very reassuring.

He hated Indira ghandhi for subverting laws and the constitution he had so painstakingly help draft after agitating for freedom  and sacrificing a lot in the process .For decades my feeling were ambivalent towards Indira .g. or for that matter any political leader and i couldn't understand my grand father's anger and embitterment . But now having directly witnessed such a cavalier behaviour in my personal life,entering it slyly through spy cams ,bugs and controlling my free movement  and continuing in same vein that is disdain for law, constitution etc only now i can understand his rancour. Of having shed sweat and blood for freedom and constitution to see it all thrown to the winds by a family that started dominating the Indian politics  by totally eclipsing several others contributions and dreams.I. g's action specially imposing emergency must have rubbed salt to his wounds as this illusory emergency like set up thrown over me now when i know i haven't broken any law  .So when my sub conscious is opened with those gadgets etc i hate those two and the coterie around them and recently  as well as their dravidian ally dmk.Don't know whether the rage towards them  is  artificially put into me or it is because  i am actually grasping the role of the key players in this shady going ons  though after being worked on it is closed and forgotten unless i write it down .It is a sub conscious rebellion.

People professing my father's intellectual,political leanings, basic beliefs which were all great influence all my life have been disastrous for me whilst  those professing my grand father's leanings though he is very distant in my memory unlike my father who was a pillar of strength through out my life till his death,have not harmed me in the political mess i landed unwittingly.

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Thirupavai-12.

Kanaithilang katruyerrumai kandrikku irangi,
ninaithu mulaivazhiye nindru paal sora ,
ninaithilam serrakkum narselvan thangai!
pani thalai veezha nin vasar kadaipatri,
sinnathinaal thenillangai komanai setra,
manathiku inniyanai paadavum nee vaithiravai!
innithaan yezhundhirai yee thenna perurrakum,
anaithu illadharum arindhe lorembavai.

meaning:

The milk overflowing from yet to be milked buffaloes that are yearning for their calves ,has drenched the house and turned into slush the grounds of a good man whose sister you are!
We are standing out in the open with the cold dew drenching our heads whilst we are singing the praises of one who is very sweet to the heart and who  killed the lord of southern lanka overcome by anger .
Yet you remain dumb.
All the residents have woken up but for you! What is the meaning behind this deep sleep dear young girl?
 

Public preceptions expert.!

I am in the eye of political storm not because of my political ideologies or leanings since none of them are clear cut  and compartamalised but because of my  being the quintessential   public of India .
My grand father , father and my husband had and have clear cut political leanings and i realise after an exhaustive bout  of diary writing yesterday in the solitude of a house to myself and sorting out the haze enveloping me like a blinding blaze kept constantly kindled by   politicos fishing into my ideas directly [those ruling,naturally with their desperation and where withal at their disposal]and others through my writings that includes very much my diary with help of conniving   minions ,i realise that i never had any , only that India should be safe from external aggression and have clean environment, good roads ,uninterrupted supply f water and electricity ,a sizable expendable income and that  children shouldn't be forced into the terribly tension filled useless race to secure high marks and even higher marks to make a mark in life ,that is in pursuit of a comfortable and happy living but enjoy it and get enjoyable jobs with good income ,afford travelling around the country and enjoy leisure in reasonable entertainments ,take pride in getting international acclaim and prizes in sports ,movies, music , literature,science etc as well as pride in keeping up with the achievements of the developed countries like missions to space ,mars and securing a station at Antarctica and so on .

I suppose this ordinary precept ion is what super smart  politicians with their razor sharp intelligence are looking for .Funnily that which is within the grasp of a normal ordinary citizen is not within theirs!
With Internet ,the ordinary perceptions of ordinary citizens are going world wide.And i was caught , trapped and used precisely because of my blogging and now my diary which reveals at times my real perceptions shorn of the super imposed ones .

The fatigue of the nation with lack of even a  speck of patriotism in the ruling party --lack of development coupled with lack of pride in development, pampering of divisiveness, indifference to terrorist acts and soft pedalling them and lack of pride in normal Hindu identity[this was proved by an anchor of ndtv 's sad and obviously disappointed demeanour a couple of months back whilst revealing the statistics that 50% or more % of Indians are centre right and i was soundly thrashed 2 year back for daring to recognise this and say so several years earlier and also for persisting on saying so despite threats,and insults   ]  and deliberately suppressing it to please other communities , and the revelation of unbelievably astronomical corruption figures , was reflected in the Internet blogs and in comments of various blogs and articles of even some of the leading newspapers and mags  that were put online ,as well. Not wanting to offend or hurt this very well educated or well informed or both , the main tide that was flowing, i too went along with them .It was the politicians who were flowing against this'Young tide ' with thier aversion to the net with its free speeech that wasn't scared of authority  and free ventilation of emotions without any political clouring on issues which politicians were capitalising or had a stake on or wanted to be hidden.

Unfortunately i was proved right ,in the rise of Modi and Aap.I say unfortunate because ,from then onwards expectations on my public observations and perceptions has grown tremendously putting too much pressure upon me.Either to tweak it or compulsorily give it.

An open letter to Modi fans.

I am well past the age of hero worshipping and am in a age where i can appreciate perfection and extra ordinary qualities in various mind sets and even in persons having a altogether different mind set from that of mine.Just that facet and not what that individual is or what he or she stands for.So  it is difficult for me to decode this unstinting loyalty that brooks not even a tiny bit of opposition to a person viz modi [though  i am in consonance with his view India first and his emphasis on development ]which reminds me of that which was similarly bestowed on Anna in the height of his campaign against corruption largely by youngsters.
I have a feeling that i have in some way that is by my writings etc have at certain times hurt the feelings of Modi's young followers.Hence i am offering this explanation to those who are willing to listen.

First i am in a abnormal and extraordinary situation.The Intel's with their sophisticated gadgets have parked themselves all around me so as to control my movements, emotions and even thought process.Those who are amazed that such gadgets could ever exist even if you  have read people cookers com [which has given a true list ]and do not believe it or what i am saying just spare a thought as to how human beings sitting 1000's and even  lakhs of kms away in earth are able to control the direction and movements satellites,space crafts in the outer space.The latest being the mangalayan orbiter.Just  a fraction of that stupendous technology is all that is needed by secret services to control human beings in their vicinity. Ultra sonic sounds can make dogs bark, cats to snarl and wake up roosting crows at midnight to caw in fear as well as cause intermittent buzzing sound in my ears whilst going to bed to stir up my brain and emotions to belch out ideas and fury in the daytime.So i am a victim of state's control .

I decided not to go to the state police because of the futility of it all .
1. No doubt the police will act  but i may get trapped in long winding court proceedings for which i have neither patience nor the energy.
2. The reach of this central service is too far and wide to be checked so easily.
3. Just as i had decided in 2012 I'll wait it out even if more and more screws are being put ,till the elections since it is my belief that with a change in govt  in centre i ll be of little use to any politicos and will be discarded immediately as a rag.But if it persists naturally i will approach the state police.

I am giving these lengthy explanation because  if my writings appear to hurt you all  in some way or the other bear it in mind that several of  it is not of my own volition and at various others  the result of deliberate prodding, suggestions, hypnosis etc.

1.I realise that my current role [apart from being the favourite whipping girl of the ruling party]is to provide ideas to shore up A. Kejriwal's --[one who is being projected as the main rival of modi by media pundits and other interested parties] --honest activist image in all probability by Cong  which has become desperate and has lost the big picture[that in the next incumbency  wave whenever that may be they can make a comeback,preferably with a strong Hindu leader at the helm]  and is hell bent as i have realised with my own personal experiences at their hands in keeping bjp in general and modi in particular at bay .

2. I offered my services to bjp here at Chennai as i have become a member of bjpand continue to be one but they are reluctant to make use of it .Probably due to its over confidence coupled with resentment towards me as being instrumental in creation of  aap that cut into its votes at Delhi.
Frankly if my blogging in any way led to the birth of aap party it was purely unintentional.Actually i very much wanted that A .K and co remain as activists or  a pressure group but it was their own inner desire hidden deep within that came out in open after a 10 day fasting  to read the signs and directions they wanted to read in my blog, on those days  and made them enter politics.Remember that when similar pressure was exerted upon me to join a party i withstood it as long as i could ,because my inner most desire wasn't in politics but only a deep commitment to blogging and activism which your hero and idol grasped immediately and let me be.

By the way i was eager to go to villages to collect iron and soil for Patel's statue and museum and i would have given a nice write up backed by photos and video and would have blogged it.My viewers across the world would have read it which could have been an good advertisement for Modi .But the invitation never came though i visited the bjp office twice as  am still its member[though the brush off was obvious and having forgotten of being used as' middle class preception' in foreign policy either  to turf out some of the compromised political elite or purely for upholding india's meagre and nearly non existent prestige abroad or for both ,much against my will ,i concluded that the frosty reception was due to my role in aap politics hence this long clarification]   and i am not all that energetic and pushy to stubbornly insist on being taken to those tours.[ Tamilnadu.]
In conclusion ,dear young fans of Namo kindly bear it mind that i am also being exploited to throw a spanner in the works of  modi campaign and it is humanly impossible not to succumb to such sustained stealthy pressures that i try hard not to .So please be on guard.And remember that i did want to build up your idols image [tiny tho'] in my own way.

Thirupavai-11

Katruk karavai kannangal pala katradhu
setrrar thiralazhiya sendru seruseiyum
kutram ondrum illadha kovalartham porkodia!
putraar valgul punmaiyile!podharai
sutran thozhimaar yellarum vandhunin,
mutram pugudhu mugilvannan perpada
sitradhe pesadhe selvapendatti nee,
yetru urangum porule lorembavai

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O golden tendril of the blameless cow herding clan whose livelihood is from gentle milch cows ,who are also so very courageous that they will defeat their enemies in their own den,
You are blessed with femininity coupled with prosperity and beauty that is comparable to that of a peacock living in glens and that of the hood of a cobra  living in a ant hill,
Awake and arise!
We ,your relatives and friends have collected at front of your house and are singing the sacred names of Bhagwan bearing the hue of rain bearing clouds ,
What is the purpose behind your slumber, which is bereft of movements and speech?