Crow .

Blogged nuclear energy yesterday ,not wanting to tempt politicians world over to use my writigs as a bargaining chip in diplomacy when things have worked out well for india in this andaman triangle embroilgo.
For more than  a fortnight i knew i was in the eye of a huge storm and that i had to guard myself against writing.
A crow dived at my head and barely missed pecking it ,in a shady avenue in one of my morning walks in those days [dont remember th exact date].

As per hindu belief it is a bad omen, an indication of impending disaster. i learnt of this from my f'i'l .That crow was attracted only to my head and not to several others who were walking down that road .i tried examining this rationally.Was my head boiling with emotions  [needled by ultarsonic sounds etc to kindle my creative part of the brain , am i not a right brain type[and it sent some waves which attracted or ir ritated that crow so as to make  a lunge at me.

can't discount all our ancient belief's , the fruits of the experiences of our anscestors down the ages , can we?

There fore i decided to be on guard .Yet i wrote as pull of those gadjets, hypnosis,etc must have been applied strongly, but refrained with greatest restraint to express my views, theories etc on the emystrey of the missing airliner as i was needled  to write on it  and i instinctively didn't want to as that crow had warned me that if i did it wouldn't augur well .

More over that transport minister of malaysia kept popping on tv the instant i finished writing something and i was given signals by banging on ceiling to link up my writing to those press meets.

yes i knew that i was being persuaded to make a link between my earlier blog on Marriana trench [a cursr i put on some one] and this mishap and to get into a guilt trap and either shout at terrorists  for targetting india ,by writing ofcourse ,which would mean that they were targetting india because of imminent arrival of modi on the scene which would imply, a middle class preception that , he was arriving and that if he did this was what one was to expect in here and india would no loger be a haven for liberals to breathe  and live freely [what with A. sen saying he will pack and leave india]hence it was now or never moment to grant reprieve to sg from US  laws so that her movement to US  in future will not be hindered.
                                                                                    .I kept resisting that trap and the urge to write about that plane's tragic end.since i had earlier on in the first episode of dev/ i had decided  never to become a pawn in the games politicians world over play and to combat the deceit, selfishness and hypocrisy with all my will power. .i suppose i did this time around.

Realisation of early morning---25.3.14

I was wondering as to why bjp has not expelled me for constantly berating and also embarrassing them with my posts on Hinduism .It is not that i am too insignificant so as not to merit  a thought as  my significance is on net  and due to that , my inter national viewers and with my penchant of writing crazy stuff and weird abuses at extreme provocation, would come in handy in future when and it if it forms the govt to strike deals with us specially till sg case is hanging in fire,to monkey the  US lawmakers and jurors out there who will never read my blogs but only a page of my emotional and passionate writings  stirred by psycho analyst.

Since bjp is pro west and fear China my forcible 'public services' will be greatly valued if they form the govt next, for that matter any one who forms a govt ,to cut deals suited to their interest.

 . But one thing all of them have to contend with is that once i have formed a view on  a given subject it is quite tough to tweak it at a sub conscious level and if i have no view on a subject but if i  am wary of being misused i will somehow try to right it.

Realisation of the day--21.3.14

The very fact that i am writing reams upon reams on foreign policy in a note book--viz expanding the bermuda triangle with new theories every day like as if i am a foreign correspondent could be the concerted attempts of politico's to divert me from expounding my 'basic instinct'' views as opposed to academic ones on Indian politics, virtually on a daily basis as i have resolved to do so as my pay back for the humiliation ,isolation and sufferings imposed upon me for the past,nearly 2 years to be precise from end of april 2012   24/7 non stop by them or with their conniviance.

As of now the parties that could have been somewhat affected by my home spun theories and earthy primitive instincts have been the foll---

Cong, dmk,communists, the 160 group[a theory i heard on tv] in bjp with pm ambitions.Modi  i persume benifitted ,some what.

Is it my fault that what i write on the spur of the moment ,that is on seeing tv news or reading the papers or under deliberate provocation and manipulations,either co- incides or contravenes with what the power mad crafty, politicians are already harbouring within? 

For seeing

i was unnecessarily hounded for foreseeing the debacle that Cong finds itself now whilst in fact S.g foresaw it way back in 2010 when she took ill  .I came into the picture with my predictions  much later,in 2012.

Diplomatic puzzle.--------blog leaks

The re-indictment of Dev .k --is it liberal admins attempts to find loopholes in laws for the sake of a liberal lynch pin of a tottering party lording and now lurching over a populace that is by and large an ill liberal lot?

Surmises arrived at with help of
1,article in tuglaq
2.Articles in net
3.My own shabby and grotesque treatment at the hands of one in control of my Psyche and surroundings ,the first time this episode broke out in news and when my middle class perception was in great demand in foreign affairs and my discovering the nexus between the amazing and unbelievable connection between my house and us state dept or any of its appendages. written in detail in  sujataism.

My view .
           If the us admins wants to monkey with its lawmakers and people through me [sujata the blogger and diarist]in collusion or connivance  with the govt, and big two parties   in here in its foreign policy with India  and if those us lawmakers and citizens are such fools to fall into a trap with their eyes open [i have already explained in detail as how i am being show cased as middle class precept ion to foreign audiences in Sujataism .That which i was doing on own accord several year back was slowly manipulated as per needs and exigencies shadily through psychiatric control which i am rebelling against constantly since when i got to know about it , as i,refuse to bow to whims of politicians to which ever shade they may belong to and however powerful they may be.fools they made may lay too many golden eggs  and are unable to get some when they dearly want it]then it is their karma to have a crook like obama as their president.

I am assuming that all these pressures that i am continually subject even after joining bjp is from cong since it is in power.It could also be other way around it needs only a doc and few helpers and intels[lent happily by cong] thrown in..    How ever  for the 24/7pressures i am subject to for so many years  it is logical to conclude  that  it is the omini present Dravidian parties in here   whether in power or out of it have the resources and manpower to keep up the pressures upon me to write provoke and , harrass ,   and also to convert as it they did in 2014 September on me

{{**** 6.2.19--Note --Conversion to Christianity was carried on me in full scale in 2014 with blessings from many [politicians]and others turning  blind eyes. I didn't succumb .In between Muslims sneaked in with their agenda  of slow,sly and long drawn conversion, which is still going on as they refuse to take a No from me as an answer. They make their intention clear in this by putting as many hurdles as possible in my leading a Hindu life.Whether they have the support of Christian converters in this or not i have no idea ,,maybe they do and both were and are trying thier hand at it since long, but it is certain that they have political backing if not they cannot get away with what they are doing to me that is placing hurdles tenaciously in me leading  a Hindu way of life ,since a decade ,I am sure that they have the full support and backing and help  of Hindus as well ,otherwise it would be impossible for them to keep the pressure on me when i visit temples and homams and shradhas and in my daily puja .******}}

                                                                                                                                                                      And at present i maybe affecting bjp more than cong

1. Sort of helped in creating aap that foxed its chances in Delhi
2.providing ideas to aap ,their noisy rival unwittingly ,[by cursing to stave off my current resentment against forcible illegal control]
3.giving intellectual arguments from my knowledge of history ,again unwittingly [for me it is academic exercise].to not so moderate rights whom the libs in bjp would love to wish away.along with me of course [my irksome presence in net] .Assuming it is for this reason that bjp may be controlling me i will never subsume my rights  since i have no  deep resentments or deliberate agenda  against any community so to rub salt,so as to make me feel guilty for sharing my knowledge of history and hindu culture.
4.also beneficial to cong to replenish its ideas and currently to provide ideas to encourage their pet  pug--aap to tackle bjp

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open air jail.

Son came for the weekend  and then left .A bit of normality in my highly tailored life returned briefly.As he came and left the plump next door neighbour popped out to greet him before i could be the first one to do so.Whilst the childless middle aged couple next door opened  lift door  ,timing it with his entry .

The entire abnormality of the situation around here hit me as i watched a khap like commotion from the opposite slum tenements as a police patrol slid by without the slightest admonishment or firmness they always show in J'J's rule to disperse a unruly crowd even if it would be only a group of four in earlier times.

If i go up a neighbour will invariably pop up .If i stand in the balcony any passerby will be stopped and made to stare at me.There is no longer any laughter in the corridors of our flat.If at all it is contrived and at a signal.That khap was also tailored ,so was that uncharacteristic overlooking by the famed Chennai police.

In fact not a single spontaneous skirmish has taken place in the opposite side ,unbelievably , for past two years whilst it was dime a dozen a day.This entire area viz my flat and neighbouring flat and neighbours have all become zombied inmates.Nobody has any visitors any longer.No chit chats, arguments and laughter.All those rough and tough persons in the easy street have fallen silent.On the day and nights the fraud Freud sishya's treatment is in full force for some political purpose  a deathly silence is maintained all over.

With a shock i realised that for my sake --a single person this entire area is strictly controlled with the consequent loss of spontaneity and verve and normalcy of all those around.And it is not for a day or two but for past two whole years!  Even cm j.j's neighbours would not have been told to shut up and behave like it is being done here .
Just who is that megalomaniac for whose benefit scores of families in this street have to curb their natural behaviour and tendencies and lead such a unhappy life for past two years?
Before only i was unhappy wrapped in my grief.Now every one around seem to be manacled and shackled and joyless.
There many in here who have never troubled me or crossed my path .Yet they are all being put into trouble.I feel really sorry for them and  that just for one person -me--most importantly some one or many in power are putting a lot of people in a unnatural, contrived and freedom less situation.

Instead all that could ave been done was to actually put me in a jail or some such solitary place on some trumped upcharges.Then it would have affected only me and not all the families and persons living nearby.,in the flats,and tenements .
A lot of inconvenience , loss of freedom loss of spontaneity in life's joys and griefs.Which pervert devised this? The extraordinary selfishness of the megalomania is unbelievable.Just for tackling me--a woman  should so many be put in non stop control for 2 years!Why couldn't such sharp minds devise ways and means to shut me away in prison instead of notifying an entire neighbourhood as a open air jail?

How is it, that , those wielding extra ordinary power derived from people , magnify only their problems, their future, their security, their privacy, their family and wealth whilst road rolling over the desires and rights of common people who have equal stake in  every inch of this sacred land?

Herr Hitler was called a megalomania. The person or group that that has devised this this open air jail for a entire neighbourhood for self aggrandisement and even amusement has beaten fuerher hollow.

I reverse my compliment [though perverted] .This is an act of cowardice . Nothing but pure and sheer cowardice.